I am so tired.

will I ever leave this digital void?

I am so tired.
So tired of scrolling.
So tired of notifications.
So tired of filters.
So tired of follow for follow.
So tired of endless content.
So tired of double speed.
So tired of fast edits and short clips.
So tired of the algorithm.
So tired of not recognizing any face on my feed.
So tired of questioning if it’s real or AI.
So tired of being bombarded with everyone else’s political opinions before I even formed my own.
So tired of taking pics “for the gram.”
So tired of aesthetic everything.
So tired of comparison.
So tired of the disappointment.
So tired of the superficiality.
So tired that I want to leave.
Leave my phone in the drawer.
Close my laptop on the table.
Just continue on with my life,
A little calmer,
A little more satisfied,
A little more present.
But how?
But how will I know about that Facebook event?
But how will I find new ways to braid my hair?
But how will I share pictures with my family who live so far away?
But how will my friends remember I exist?
But how will I share my words, my art, my creations,
Impact others,
Make something of myself,
In a world where you can’t even publish a book without having a following,
Where influencers make more than any office job could ever offer.
But how will I fulfill my dreams if the only one who knows about them is me?
Maybe I’ll just ask Chat GPT.
And so I pull out my phone,
And begin scrolling,
Following notification after notification,
Until my head hurts and my eyes sting.
Wow, I think,
I am so tired.

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thank you for reading.

I hope you enjoy.

and honestly, if you have a solution to my quandary, please share!!